Weathering Storms.

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We have and we are all weathering storms of our own, throughout our lives, and there will always be more to come. Regardless of its causes.

One may feel more weathered than another.
They may allow themselves to be more stressed by their memories, thoughts and feelings, than by the “stresses” around them. Internalising the storm from within.
Whilst another appears, able to shrug it all off. Things are not always what they seem.

One may choose to be an open book, whilst another, may choose to remain closed.
It does not mean, another suffered, will suffer or is suffering, less.
Yet, one sometimes chooses to borrow tomorrow’s troubles, potentially reliving the stress – two-fold. Each to their own.

Beings will cope differently to one another, whilst one will cope as best as they can, some, the only way they may know how. Some, needing guidance.

One person may retreat whilst another will be in awe of all those around them, for managing to shine on having been and being, in storms of their own.

One may experience a storm in a teacup whilst another may experience it as an overbearing storm on their horizon. 

Every being and situation is different, naturally, coping mechanisms will differ.

What with face masks and face coverings being made mandatory, the isolation, the anxieties and the barriers we as a deaf community are feeling, will face daily. we are ALL in this, dealing with this, as one. The best we can. We will all be able to relate and empathise with one another.

Be proactive, not reactive. It is down to education – there will be situations due to ignorance, arrogance, lack of deaf awareness and presumptions as to why someone is not wearing a mask. Remain kind, remain patient and educate.

I’ve had an elderly guy who was wearing a face mask, laugh at me when I explained I couldn’t understand him since I couldn’t lip read him. I chose to let his immaturity pass, and not react at all. Sure, it bothered me a little at the time but I refuse to let it, or anything trivial, consume and/or dictate me and relatively, imprison me. We cannot stop the waves but we can learn to surf. 

If anyone feels alone, be it as a result of the sea of emotionless, faceless masks or otherwise, please DO REACH OUT, for those who are able to, will be there.

💖

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

During The Coronavirus…

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Photo by SJ

As I went to check my bank balance by paying the ATM a visit, I saw an elderly man impatiently waiting outside the bank as I approached. I knew it was closed due to it being a bank holiday / VE Day so decided to inform him it was closed today. He didn’t want to believe me.

I pointed at the polite notice on the bank’s door… I said that’s today. He spoke to me whilst wearing his face mask… I’d previously told myself I wouldn’t communicate with anyone wearing a mask simply because I cannot lipread them. I decided to be patient with him as he was elderly and informed him that I am deaf, that I can’t see his lips while he’s wearing the mask. He laughed.

Hmmm.

I reminded him once more the bank is/was closed and he frustratingly left to do his shopping.

After obtaining my mini statement, as I started to walk home, there was such a noise which made me look up to the sky to see what it was and there I saw, the red arrows flying over in a V formation. 💖

The best things come to those who wait?

One day, our children’s generation will be saying, “During the coronavirus….”

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Stupid-19

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My oldest daughter had not been keen to venture out at all this past week so to get her out for a walk this evening was an achievement, at her pace, within her comfort zone of course. So we headed to the local park which is just down the road from us. I was feeling pleased to see her outdoors at a very difficult time, for any one of us.

We could see a family which had stopped a short distance away in front of us and I didn’t want to hang around behind them, waiting for them to get a move on so we went around them giving them a wide berth.

My oldest daughter overheard the mother and father… and told me what they had said once we had passed them. They were Americans.

The mother was apparently telling me off for going around them, that we were not two metres away, and did I not know they were infected? That English people are so rude…. The father stopped the mother from saying any more by saying “Oi!” to her.

One, we gave them a very wide berth, wider than most would have and have done,
Two, if she wants to use the language that “we are infected” whether it’s to describe herself, her family, the town, the city or country, my daughter would like to know just why you were outside? As of today, London has 16,721 confirmed cases. https://www.arcgis.com/apps/opsdashboard/index.html#/ae5dda8f86814ae99dde905d2a9070ae
If she was talking about herself, her family being infected, wtf were they doing outside?
Three, the English are rude? Erm… hello?!

Had I heard what she was venting at me, I would have turned around to her and signed “Welcome to London, England – enjoy your stay.” 🙄

Thankfully, my daughter enjoyed her quick walk, I had warned her beforehand that there are police monitoring the park so for her to actually see them there, was a strange experience. She mentioned enjoying her walk except for encountering “stupid”.

It’s a strange experience for each and every one of us. We can only deal with this the best we can.

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Too Peopley Outside(!)

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Dear Diary,

To the covidiots gathering in the local parks, socialising in this glorious weather… this is how not to overreact to a stranger that may be walking / running by keeping (at least) a good social distance.

DON’T jump behind he nearest tree to avoid them.
DON’T jump behind the nearest building / shed to avoid them.
DON’T show your fear that makes them feel like a monster that may be going out for a walk or a run for exercise / their mental health purposes.

Why is it so hard for some people to be pleasantly mindful and respectful?

The sooner ALL the parks are closed, the better. The police have apparently been enforcing their powers, dispersing covidiots gathering & sunbathing elsewhere…. This deadly virus does not discriminate yet it is separating stupidity from sensibilities.

The covidiots’ overreactions is THEIR problem. That’s all I have to and need to remember.

This is sadly the perfect time for anyone wanting to or likes to be in their own world. Too peopley outside(!)

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Coronavirus 19.

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Tesco’s, Dukes Green.

Dear Diary,

I’m falling asleep much earlier at night from pure tiredness, having been tense and worried every minute of the day.
My heart sinks every time one says they have a headache, or have an innocent cough. I worry about them on top of everything and everyone else.
It is the norm to see an ambulance or two but yesterday it was the first time I felt dread seeing one creeping by, “what if?” I hoped that person would be ok regardless.
I’m waking up to worrying again, whether my family is ok, if anyone’s feeling better, checking my phone to see if there’s any news of loved ones and friends and being momentarily thankful for none. Yet I know, there will be at least one.
My day of worrying and feeling tense then starts all over again…

London has the highest rates of confirmed cases, confirmed cases in each and every neighbouring borough – that’s not counting those who have the virus and haven’t been tested.

Worse is yet to come. Stay safe, wherever you may be. 💖

To the idiots who think you/they are invincible, you need a good slap, and then some, for spreading this deadly virus – you have potentially murdered many more with your stupidity instead of saving loved ones. Other people’s loved ones also.
Shame on you covidiots.

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

 

Don’t Ask? Don’t Get.

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Most service providers have long since caught up with the times, enabling us to book an appointment online.
Does your local GP surgery provide you with an online service?
It is worth checking with your local surgery – please see the link below for more information. And, if they do not provide an online service, why not enquire as the whether they would consider it? For the many, to benefit from it.

If we don’t ask (very politely!😜), we don’t get.

https://www.nhs.uk/about-the-nhs-website/aboutnhschoices/find-and-choose-services/pages/gp-online-booking-systems-old.aspx

I’d Walk Alone.

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Today has been another one of those strange days, full of reflection and acceptance whilst walking amongst strangers.

Remembering the importance of self value, care and love.
The happiness from within (and not for a reason, simply because that reason can be taken away.)
How our past experiences continuously teaches us to introspect, learn from, in order to improve and grow.

Concluding once more, anyone that’s proud and honoured to be my friend, willing to walk besides me, will find a friend in me.

Otherwise, I’m quite content to walk alone.

💜

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

It’s Okay…

It’s okay…

I found out on Friday night a friend had passed away just before the summer. I was so afraid to hear more in case it confirmed my fears. It was sadly confirmed and I have had loads of wobbly moments since.

What if I could have made a difference had I not put in so much distance? Questions like that haunted me.

But now, I’m ok because best friends always say, “It’s ok, to be sad. It’s ok, to have these wobbly moments. It’s ok, to ask questions. It’s ok, to be honest. It’s ok, to say no. It’s ok, I’m always here for you.”

Don’t bottle things up and just talk. That’s always been my downfall in case I affected the other person’s mood or feelings.

A best friend doesn’t and wouldn’t mind, simply because we matter to them.

🤟🏼

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Time Out…

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There is so much love in the air at this point in time that it is making me think twice, perhaps even thrice, about everything. Everyone….

Being reminded of how it feels to fall in love, being in love and thus feeling loved, is pretty hard going. Some people can shrug it off and get on with life whereas others will just crumble, from time to time.

It is okay; to crumble. It is okay, to have a cry. It is okay, to be angry. What we all need to remember is that we, each and every one of us, is to be kind to ourselves and not over think. Too many “what if’s” isn’t healthy, too much time spent ruminating, also isn’t healthy.

I find it helps to visually sort out all the thoughts and emotions into a box and pack them away. Dispatching it even. Seeing and feeling the weight fade away.

There is no such thing as a perfect person but there is and there will be, someone that is perfect for you… and me. Until then, let us reserve our hearts.

Meanwhile, do make sure to take some time out each and every day, to treat yourself. For a little dab of my favorite perfume and a mug of hot chocolate, to me, is priceless.

You deserve it and so much more.

~ SJ (Sara Jae)