Stupid-19

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My oldest daughter had not been keen to venture out at all this past week so to get her out for a walk this evening was an achievement, at her pace, within her comfort zone of course. So we headed to the local park which is just down the road from us. I was feeling pleased to see her outdoors at a very difficult time, for any one of us.

We could see a family which had stopped a short distance away in front of us and I didn’t want to hang around behind them, waiting for them to get a move on so we went around them giving them a wide berth.

My oldest daughter overheard the mother and father… and told me what they had said once we had passed them. They were Americans.

The mother was apparently telling me off for going around them, that we were not two metres away, and did I not know they were infected? That English people are so rude…. The father stopped the mother from saying any more by saying “Oi!” to her.

One, we gave them a very wide berth, wider than most would have and have done,
Two, if she wants to use the language that “we are infected” whether it’s to describe herself, her family, the town, the city or country, my daughter would like to know just why you were outside? As of today, London has 16,721 confirmed cases. https://www.arcgis.com/apps/opsdashboard/index.html#/ae5dda8f86814ae99dde905d2a9070ae
If she was talking about herself, her family being infected, wtf were they doing outside?
Three, the English are rude? Erm… hello?!

Had I heard what she was venting at me, I would have turned around to her and signed “Welcome to London, England – enjoy your stay.” 🙄

Thankfully, my daughter enjoyed her quick walk, I had warned her beforehand that there are police monitoring the park so for her to actually see them there, was a strange experience. She mentioned enjoying her walk except for encountering “stupid”.

It’s a strange experience for each and every one of us. We can only deal with this the best we can.

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Too Peopley Outside(!)

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Dear Diary,

To the covidiots gathering in the local parks, socialising in this glorious weather… this is how not to overreact to a stranger that may be walking / running by keeping (at least) a good social distance.

DON’T jump behind he nearest tree to avoid them.
DON’T jump behind the nearest building / shed to avoid them.
DON’T show your fear that makes them feel like a monster that may be going out for a walk or a run for exercise / their mental health purposes.

Why is it so hard for some people to be pleasantly mindful and respectful?

The sooner ALL the parks are closed, the better. The police have apparently been enforcing their powers, dispersing covidiots gathering & sunbathing elsewhere…. This deadly virus does not discriminate yet it is separating stupidity from sensibilities.

The covidiots’ overreactions is THEIR problem. That’s all I have to and need to remember.

This is sadly the perfect time for anyone wanting to or likes to be in their own world. Too peopley outside(!)

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Deaf Mental Health On Social Media.

If you want to learn sign language or needed an interpreter for an appointment, would you settle for someone who knows only the basics and perhaps a little more? You would not because you would want a qualified sign language tutor or a registered interpreter – right? So that you could be fully confident of what you were being taught / told.

Then why are people (especially the deaf) sharing very personal videos about their mental health issues and sharing them to a secret group, run by an admin team and members that are NOT qualified to relatively advise?

I from personal experience appreciate that friendly support can be therapeutic and is better than nothing but it’s potentially dangerous in such a social media group. Thank you, but no thank you. I’ll stick to sites provided by qualified counsellors.

Please view a previous post of mine which also relates to mental health therapy, the deaf way. 

Vent given. ☺️

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Yes, You.

This is in response to a select few friends who picked up on the BBC article “Using Facebook made my anxiety worse” with Paul Allen, written by Zara Morgan.

Source.

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I saw very early on how certain people would only show us, what they wanted us to see. How people used and still use, social media as a tool, to manipulate and engineer illusions. Negativity I could sometimes let pass but not when it gave cause for concern and having been able to be there for others gave me reason to remain. I know how and what some of you are experiencing… for I do see YOU. 💖

YOU have been the only reason why, I am still on social media. Sure, I have my own frustrations and my own ghosts to deal with but they’re mine and not anyone else’s to bear. I find myself having to sit on my hands sometimes, bite my lips whenever I witness one of the many forms of injustice… Sometimes I just cannot resist! 😝 I dislike being a bystander to it, for fear of inviting it. Some people find me intimidating but that’s their problem. Some people choose to ignore me, that’s once again their problem. Some people choose to be angry… let them waste their time being so. They and my ghosts should not, and do not, dictate me or my precious time. Don’t let them dictate yours.

I choose to focus on my kids because who knows where we will be, this time tomorrow. It is only those who have knocked on deaths door who understands where I truly come from, only those who have personally experienced the quagmires of depression who can relate. Why I am, who I am.

Everyone is different and are at different stages in their lives. How you choose to proceed or react, is up to YOU entirely. Let nothing negative influence or manipulate YOU.

If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. God willing.

~ SJ (Sara Jae)

Are You Ok?

“Am I ok??”

I need to stop caring about what others may think, may feel and speak my mind but then again speaking my mind and being honest is exactly what people fear and can’t handle.
It is not only what they may think but also what they could use against me. I know I shouldn’t give a toss and I need to practise that. People sometimes throw things back into my face, especially when I no longer permit them to exploit my kindness and I do notice / wise up more than I should.
I’ve been through a lot which contributes to my frustrations and anxieties yet just by saying that, people tend to think I’m making myself out to be a victim or seeking attention but they haven’t walked a mile in my shoes or survived knocking on deaths door. If they want to pass judgement on me, some friend they are?! They’ll reject me anyway simply because they are not equipped to accept me as I am or love me unconditionally.
I’ve had enough
Of people, making me feel the way I do.
Of memories, haunting me.
Such a conflicting place to be

This is why I am so grateful for so much in my life and know who not to be, who is genuine, can cherish each and every little thing.

Rant over ☺️ xxx

“Yes, I’m fine thanks.” 🤣

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~ SJ (Sara Jae)

 

Will My Child Be Okay?

As any mother would naturally anticipate and share the same relative concerns of “Will my child be okay?” Yet when it comes to that precise moment upon finding out a child may have a form of a challenging disability, we all take a moment to reflect on it.

One rather anxious mother’s question of the like was asked of Coordown when it was confirmed after agreeing to undergo tests for Down’s Syndrome; her unborn baby would have this genetic condition.

Here is an extremely heart-warming video response they (15 people from around the World) made for her which I am sure gave her goose pimples as it did me and I shall take my hat off to Coordown Group for one of the most reassuring letters.

Enjoy…

~ SJ (Sara Jae)