If only I could turn back the hands of time, I would have told you, that I loved you.
Then again, if you truly respected or loved me in return, you would not have kicked me whilst I was down, exploited and stabbed me in the back or expressed any disdain. To think, I would never have done any wrong by you, or anyone else.
Not a day goes by when I do not think of you, or wonder how you are, hoping that you are okay. Most importantly, if you are happy since happiness is all I ever wish(ed) for, for you. Then and now.
Losing the best of my friends over the past few years has been an extremely cathartic experience but it has not come without any consequences as a result, of your actions and choices. Due to the manner you behaved in, God only knows whether in the future, I would give you a second chance.
I thank you as well as the others, for showing me who not to be.
Yet despite your flaws, I miss you… Still.
All my love, more than you realise.
Then. Now. Always.
~ SJ (Sara Jae)